HELP

Is 1am in the morning, and i still havent open my books to study..

No mood, everything just dun stick in the brain..

wat is this~!!...

i need SOS

HELP!!

WHY!!

Now is 4am in the morning, just finish revising for theory later at 8am.

The minute i rest for awhile, thoughtttssss and emonesssssss come crouching at me again~!!..

....i just want to concentrate on my studies... why??

tearsss n stresssnesss, problemmmsss that canot been solve just come one by one..

As if they know the right time to hunt u....

WHY!!!...

a lost blog...

Exams is just round the corner, NO!..is just next week!!

For so many months of studies and lessons being thought, frankly tell you, i revise but not every subject, i practice but not every time..is not proud to say tat but is true..

Today writing this post, i dun know what is my main point anyway. Like what i said previously. I lost my direction. Well, i just writ what that is in my heart, but not all...

My emoness never once left me since tat day, i've tried to kick off this emoness but it never once success. Because i know tat is not easy when both party has already given everything to make both party happy even this very moment. For some people might think that i'm not matured to deal my problem, but please i have my right to handle it myself, though for some people, especially my love oness. They might not agree but i just have to run my life my own in future. They love me i know, i sincerely know that they love me. I love them too, but i dun know how to express it. For some reason, i have to kept everything inside me. I don;t want to pour it out is not because that i scared that they will pity me, b'cz i know they wont. Is just tat, sometimes,some matters especially personal problems is really better to just keep it in heart. ( i know again, my love oness will still disagree this)

今年我21岁了。一般人都会想怎么过？，和谁过？

今天，看了一个blog。就决定不想在期待什么。。。久顺其自然就好。

虽然之前都会提醒你一定要帮我度过我21岁的生日，你都会讲一定会。

可是现在， 我还是不要期待设么。因为怕失望还比期待恐怖。

可是你说过的每一句话，我都会放在心里。不会期待你会实现但至少你告诉我，我已经满足了

或取只是一封“Happy Birthday" 我都会好好save起来。

因为你还是一样那么重要。

可以说是永远吧。